Today I’m sitting back listening to some of the nice music remembering the things I have did. Sense i retired I have did some traveling made new friends and got back with my old friends but what I like most is I am more closer with my family, they understand me more because raising them I had to be the mother and father but now I can be the mother and friend I love it now I have more friends than when I was raising them,me and the girls talk all the time and my son talks more now, it is nice to know your children love and respect you as an adult also just sitting here remembering some of the decisions I had to make by myself not knowing if it was the right thing but it ended up being OK thinking about how proud I am for my children knowing they are more things we will have to deal with, just knowing that we are still making it through loving it all the time.it’s going so fast I am glad I wrote down some of my thoughts for you all and for myself . It might help you realize we don’t know it all we also learn as we go but if you trust in God and what you believe in what ever the outcome you have did your best, that’s all we asked for in our lives so I am proud of my decisions I made.
Yes I am still here my health is good my mind is clear hope everyone else is good I have know word to say why I haven’t been writing just wasn’t there for me. So much has happened and still happening God is so great he has never left my side and I love him even more. If you believe in him and ask for his forgiveness he will listen, if you ask for his help he will help so don’t give up in what you believe in. (God loves you ).
Just when you wonder what your life’s going to look like now that we have to stay home 90% of the time if you don’t work. And if you do go to work, try not to get in anyone’s space. Things are different now. We have to wear masks, social distance and sanitize as much as possible. We have no time to go to clubs that might harm you and your love ones. So what is there to do? We can regroup, make a vision boards or write what you want on paper. You have time-now to actually plan what you want. (Go for it) critique what you already we’re doing and get more sleep.
Lose a lot of the stress and eat healthier. Listen more to your children and really find out about each one as an individual.
Find out what makes your other half love you. Show more compassion amd laugh with your family and play with them more. And when I say “play with them more” it’s not just the children but also your spouse or your other half. Do the things you wanted to do but didn’t have time for. Talk to your man or woman and make plans together. Take walks together if you can. You now have more time than you ever had so use it to make things better. Now, for those who are by their selves it’s not all lost for us. Do the same things with family, just a different way. Use zoom. Play virtual games with your family. Talk to love ones. Groom those pets and you can even train them and take them outside to get some air. Take some walks down your street, go skating! Plan out what garden you want to put in your yard or on your balcony this spring. There’s a lot we can do. Go take bike rides or go write that book. Join a book club. Talk with people on the phone. Help with the food bank and so much more. Remember to be nice to your neighbors because all is not lost. It’s just now, we need to humble ourselves more.
I mean really look and see how we can help our family and then the world will become a better place. There are other people out here that are wondering the same thing that you are. Maybe this is the time to get to know yourself much better so when that person does come along, you’ll be More than ready to share what you want out of the rest of your life.
Just to night I am thinking about all the things I have done all the time I have spent with people and being alone. Just to night I praise my self for not doing a bad job . Just to night. Tonight I see three young people that I raised , I see the beauty in them that came from me, love and the knowledge to think for them selves and not give up ￼no mater how hard . Just tonight I praise my mother because she gave me my strength to pass onto others the love. My patients￼ was something I learned￼ years ago now it is needed at this time so much so for you mothers out there ” Happy Mother’s Day” and bless you all.
Streets can consume you take your pride. Beat you, nowhere to hide. Push you under the side of
your ways, strap you in and make you stay. Play with your soul take your mind, strip you from love all of the time. It can push you in the Gates of Hell. Jerk you out, never tell. Beat you up with just one stroke, lead you on it’s no joke. Streets can take your soul then just move on, stop your heart then you’re gone.
Time to conceive time to be born time to cry time to sleep time to keep time moving on, time to walk time to talk about the things that are going on. Time to eat time to read because you are not the one. Time to pray time to stay away from time back in my mind time to stay on the right path time to listen time that flows like the river, that’s the time to see what’s it mean time to teach time to preach time to rest. I did my best time to sleep time to grow time is no more time the doors close time to go and start all over again
On this night it is time to rest. Your days have been full of love from your mom and dad, sister and brothers. Sweet dreams of the days to come when you wake up with God’s grace. We are thankful for those that have been in our lives today and those that will come in the next. Sleep my dearest and never fear. Sweet dreams to you all and goodnight.
Starting the first of the year, I would like to ask you to trust your self. It never hurt to lend a helping hand. There have been time’s when a total stranger have helped me out , you never know who is watching you or when someone see your pain. Be kind to people you don’t know what they are going through. Speek to your neighbor. Stay true to yourself God see everything , stay true to him his love will never stop. I will write more soon.
Day of peace comes when I wake. The birds sing, people talking, children playing, wolf howling, wanting more love & more affection than you can give. Sometimes, the music will play something I like to here and sometimes it won’t but people working in their yards and the trees moving to their own tune is a sound that I love. The sound of nothing is sometimes nice too. I see why people go to bird watching. It brings a calmness to see here the birds. There are so many different kinds of birds and they are so beautiful. When they sing, it’s music in your ears.”I Love it” God made them so beautiful, each of them different colors. I had a bird come in my yard to eat and I didn’t know what kind of bird it was but my brother said it was a Dove but the only dove I had ever seen was white. I’d never seen a grey one. So far, I have only seen one of the doves so I am hoping his or her mate is still here. Most of the time when I see birds from sitting on my porch or in my backyard, there are two.